Friday, October 24, 2014

Crazy ...

I said that I would probably finish the book that I had wanted to get 30+% done by Sunday, right? That WAS just last night that I said it, wasn't it?

I finished it on the bus ride in to work.

I didn't think to bring my next book with me.

I'm caught up on all of the shows I normally watch without Tom.

Facebook games are making my brain bleed.

I have 3+ hours left to my shift.

Guess it's time to go hit up Netflix!

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Mid-week update

Sunday I declared the following goals for the week:
   Blog: 3 times for each
   Book: Finish Heart of Evil - 30%+ Decaffeinated Corpse
   Diet: Ignore the macros but not the the calories; 500+ daily deficit
   Fitness: 200+ minutes

Mid-week update looks like this:
   Blog: nailing it here ... not going to happen for the lunch blog. Quite frankly, I just don't care.
   Book: Finished Heart of Evil that night and surpassed the 30% for Decaffeinated Corpse this evening! It may very well be done by Sunday!
   Diet: Going GREAT! I'm eating pretty much what I want and when I want it -- making sure that deficit stays where it should. Started the week at 203.8 ... this morning (well, Wednesday) was back to 200.8 :)
   Fitness: I'm currently at 115 minutes for the week -- largely thanks to being on dog-watching duty at work for a while the past two nights. Left on my own the number would be a lot lower thanks to the stupid knee/weather issue.

The new girl at work is, so far, working out pretty well I think. I only have her for an hour each night right now and tonight was the first time we did any actual training (last night we talked too much) ... but I think it'll work out.

Not much else going on. I'm debating what to do about the lunch blog indifference. I wish there was some way to instantly post to blogger from Instagram. That one extra step of actually having to blog is what I really don't care about. Of course, I do lots more than just lunches on IG and those would autopost, too. Meh. I think I'll just say screw it and if anyone wants to see the random lunches I bother taking pictures of in the future they can bloody hell follow me on IG or Twitter. I'll still be making the lunches because John loves them and I love making them ... but the whole blogging thing is becoming more of a chore than a pleasure... and it can suck it (and I just took a break from writing this to go tell it so).


I feel better already!

Now, on to leveling up John's Sims FreePlay and watching whatever on my iPad :)

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Stupid f*%$ing weather!

As if it wasn't bad enough having to do yet another 12 hour shift .... but I've had to do it with my knee acting all pissed off over the cold drizzly crap that's been hanging around the air since right around the time I left the house. I should only have about an hour left and then I can go home and put it up for a while and hopefully not have to do another 12 hours tonight since the drizzly crap will still be lingering. At this point I don't know if I'd even be able to walk the 20ish minutes to the bus stop without bursting into tears. Ah well. At least I got puppy time tonight and was able to knock off a couple more episodes of Franklin & Bash and when I come in tonight I'll get to show our new hire how to audit because I guess she'll be doing it on weekends (and, hopefully, be around so I can take a night off once in a while without feeling guilty about making someone else do a double!). I have it all typed out so I may just hand her the sheet and say "Here. Call me if you need help." and then go back to Franklin & Bash. She has some hotel work under her belt, I guess, so hopefully she won't be too terribly, well, terrible.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Focus ... not obsession

That's my big goal for the foreseeable future : to approach this whole journey with focus but not obsession. Immediately that is going to involve not obsessing over macro ratios.

A dear old friend of mine told me: Focus to obsession is a personal perception thing, but if you feel stress instead of like you're just doing something ... its obsession.

You may or may not recall that for a while I had a sticky note on my desktop what I felt I should be doing for macros & whatever. It would change from time to time but it was always there and always something to obsess over.

I tend to be a perfectionist ... and obsessive. If I set my macros and am off on any of them by more than a couple of percents according to MFP I start freaking out and obsessing over how to fix it. It can drive a girl crazy. Focusing more on the calories in vs calories out will be easier and less crazy-making. Besides, tis the season of family gatherings full of cozy carbs ... and I will NOT deprive myself & make everyone else feel awkward and tense in the process. The internal and external tensions only add to the funk that I've been so desperate to break.

Anyway, that sticky I obsessed over was replaced this morning with this:

And then, just a few minutes ago, I remembered that today is the day that I've set as Goal Day in my new planner binder thingie ... so I filled out this week's goals:

Not sure how clear it'll turn up once I hit publish and I know it'll be small, even then, for those who may be looking via mobile so here they are again:
     Blog: 3 times for each
     Book: Finish Heart of Evil - 30%+ Decaffeinated Corpse
     Diet: Ignore the macros but not the the calories; 500+ daily deficit
     Fitness: 200+ minutes

So. Focus. (And some crossed fingers.)

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Half way through .... ish ....

Pretty much at the half way point of October and at this point the only goal set on the first that I feel confident in is the one based on The Reading Thing. I had said four books and I'm 1/4 of the way through the third (I have, though, changed the fourth book).

The doodles bit the big one (though I have been pretty successful so far with sticking to a photo-a-day dealie).

The exercise minutes so far are dismal at 501.

The scale has been creeping up instead of down.

I need to get a grip on something more than just my reading.

I also need a new planner since I'm one of those "gotta write it down" types. Mine went on an extended vacation with a friend since I was under the impression that a new one was coming to me. Almost two months later I'm getting twitchy. Maybe I'll just see if I have any spare 3-ring binders bouncing around the basement and use one of those. It won't be as convenient as something I could throw in my purse and drag with me everywhere but it would be better than the nothing I have now.